well...my boyfriend dumped me. And to make things worse...he went back with the girl he cheated on, with me. I thought at first, well he cheated on her with me, that must mean he really likes me. ya know?
but what really got me was that how he said he cared about me, and he would always love me. and then, we were over. boom. done.
I knew that it would happen...him going back to HER. Rawr!! But you know what? everyone warned me about him. my brother Nick told him that if he ever hurt me in any way, whether he meant to or not, that he would castrate him. But so far...I dont think he has even confronted him. I also have realized who my REAL friends are. the ones who very well could have said "I told you so" but chose not to. the ones that stood up for me when the others called me a whore, and I was only dating him to get into his pants. Pssh, please. I am not even 13 years old. do ya'all really think that was my intention??
What also hurts, is that the night he dumped me, (over the phone) he didnt even have the balls to tell me in person that he didnt want to see me anymore. And, the next night he told me that he jsut didnt care anymore about me, and he never REALLY loved me. But I found out later, that it was Talena, the ex, and current girlfriend talking to me on the computer, not Shyler. and when I actually talked to the real shyler on the computer, he told me he still loved me, he still cared, and that it was his mom who didnt want us to be together.
I REALLY dont know what to believe. And when Talena got on the computer, like yesterday, she told me she was sorry for everything. and never intended me and shyler to break up. which is a load of bullspit, because she told my friends, tina and tammie, and missy that she would do whatever she could to break us up, and to get shyler back. I also know for a fact....that shge told kim (shyler's mom) that if shyler pissed me off, I would cry rape. Which is another load of bullspit. I would NEVER do that. even after all that he's done to me. after all the crap he's put me through, I would NEVER do that to him. I know its probably really stupid, and pointless, and he'll probably just hurt me again, but I LOVE him. I care...still even after all this thats happened. after the lies, and the cheating. I still want to be with him. And I want to know if he feels the same, or if he just was like....a major horndog, and is only dating her for one reason: she is a slut faced whore bag. and she puts it out if ya know what I mean. It makes me sick. and....ugh!!
So I've been wondering what he'll do after she goes back home (to the other side of the state) ifhe's gonna try and get me back, oir move on. or even STAY with her. but they live 636.4 miles away from eachother....how will their "relationship" work?>?? If he does try to get me back, I dont know if I could handle that. I just dont know. I love him...absolutely...but I dont know if I can allow him to have my heart again...he still has pieces of it that he wont give back to me...those are the pieces that I couldnt find on the pavement he crushed my heart on. "I wouldve given you all of my heart...but there's someone who's torn it apart." thpse song lyrics...are pretty much perfect for the situation. And..I've adopted Fergie's "Big Girls Don't Cry" as my newest theme song. I have been listening to it non stop for like....a week.